The Lonely Road

I recently lost someone who I've known for close to eleven years. I didn't know if you had heard. They tried everything, but nothing worked. So this past May we said goodbye. We pulled the starter solenoid and finally...rest.

I left my parents house that night, never to see you again. The next time I returned, I couldn't find you in front of the tree. You were not there underneath it's canopy. I felt lonely. The whiteness, highlighted with inflections of oxidized auburn. The smooth burgundy of your velour. Sitting in the sun, no more.

You were unloved when I found you, but you had a home with me. I spent money on you, lavishing you with the finest factory aromas, new shoes, and even some body work. When strangers attacked you, they stole your song, your light, and shattered not only your outside but tore out your insides. I put you back together. I comforted you, and slowly you emerged as strong as ever. I was there.

We had been spending so much time apart. I would be gone for days, but still you always waited for me. You always took me in from the cold and made me feel safe. You kept me warm all year round (for better or worse). But, we had become distant.

I knew things were bad the time I came home and you were down. You were deflated and you couldn't go on. We were reunited a few days later, but things were never the same. You were no longer happy to see me. You ignored me and stopped mid conversation. You would not budge. I tried everything. I pampered you. I showered you with gifts. I held out hope. But it was over. The energy missing. The spark was gone.

You left me that day without saying goodbye.

I am sorry for the way I treated you. If I hurt you in any way, I did not mean it. We had some wonderful times together. Moments I will never forget. I can not believe you are gone, but I know now it was time. I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for getting me here and there. And everywhere.

This entry is dedicated to the memory of my 1990 Mercury Sable, Mercadon. Thank you for all you gave. You will be missed.